Im Scared Of What Might Happen To Me

I'm so so scared. I have never been this scared in my whole life. I've also never been this sad. And I know that I have my friends and a loving boyfriend.. but I still feel alone a lot.. with out my mom. I'm always depressed and my insecurity is always getting worse! I cry a lot. I'm stressed all the time and scared I might end up doing something stupid. I'm also scared of what might happen to me in the future. My mom/bestfriend is gone and now I have to look out for myself.. I've never had to do that before. My mom always did. I didn't really have to do anything. And then all the sudden I have no choice but to grow up. Its scary... I cant deal with all this on top of my extreme insecurity and depression.. I cant.
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Dec 4, 2012