I Wish I Was

the pretty girl with the perfect blush-on and mascara, someone he would like. I wish I was the girl he keeps talking about and the girl his heart jumps up to hear about. The girl he says has the killing looks and that he wants to know more about her. The girl he likes to look at everyday and find her everyday. I wish I was that girl. I wish he payed more attention to me and realize that maybe I have a little tinge of beauty as well.
I wish it was possible to feel the sun from both sides. I'm sick of you hurting me all the time. I really really want to tell you that I like you, but I can't. Because each time you talk about that girl, I die a little more inside. Sometimes, I just want to disappear with shame. When you talk about her infront of me, it humiliates me from th inside, it makes me realize I am not any of those beautiful things you admire. Or those that any guy would admire in a girl. I cannot tell you ever what I really feel inside.
I wish you'd love me back. If not today, and if not tomorrow, I wish then you would someday.
I wish it would never be too late.
stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad
18-21, F
Dec 10, 2012