Wish List

this was written a while back.... Tuesday April 8th 2008 to be exact... i thought i should share it

 

I wish for so many things. Things that could happen, things that some people say have already happened, and things that are impossible. Things that I can control, things that I can influence, and things that are out of my control. There are things I have forgotten to wish for simply because they are things I shouldn't have to wish for. I should have a family that cares about me. I should have a place to go when I'm sad. I should food to eat and water to drink. I should have happiness. I wish I could have these things. I wish I had a caring family. I wish I had somewhere to go when I'm sad. I wish I was happier. I wish I was a more beautiful person. I wish I was perfect. I wish I could please my parents. I wish I could be everything they want. I wish I loved myself more. I wish I didn't have to ask for things to make me happy. I wish I was a better person. I wish people cared more about other people. I wish people loved themselves more for who they are. I wish people were happy. I wish there was no war. I wish things that cause war were never there. I wish the world was a better place. I wish everyone lived forever and were happy living. I wish there was no pain. I wish people didn't suffer. I wish those who starve had food. I wish those who are lost are found. I wish those who are hurt get better. I wish there was no hate, no racism, no sexism. I wish there was no homophobia. I wish people didn't judge people before they know them. I wish I could do more than this. I wish I knew myself. I wish I knew why I'm here. I wish I didn't have to wish for everything. I wish there was no violence. I wish I could tell people everything will be ok. I wish I knew more about the world. I wish I knew what comes after life. I wish I could be less selfish. I wish everything would go right. I'm tired of it always going wrong. I'm sorry for everything I've done, everything I might be doing, and everything I could do. I'm sorry for everything others have done, what they could be doing, and everything they might still do. I'm sorry for causing people pain. I'm sorry for pain I could cause and haven't. I'm sorry for those who have suffered. I wish I could erase the past and change everything I've done. I wish I had been so much nicer to a select few people I outcast to be part of a group. I wish I wasn't scared of love. I wish I hadn't betrayed people the way they betrayed me. I wish I could help people more. I wish I hadn't bled in an attempt to be happy. I wish I hadn't lost a year of my life to that. I wish for so much and get so little. I wish there was more.

AllHallowsEve AllHallowsEve
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 8, 2010

Annual takebacks may not be possible but better lived to.follow are certainly obtainable. Choose to be, and you will be as such, with little effort. Wishing is a way to project missing components and mechanisms we seem to feel we lack. Always look forward, only in adorations should you look back.