I have had problems with being able to conceive and due to life circumstances I know I haven't always been able to take care of myself the way I need too. 
I had a hysterectomy last year in July of 2010. My sister just had her fourth baby. I am angry. Angry at the situation. The one thing I wanted more than anything in the world that would help me feel like a woman, the ability to give life. I don't have much money, but if I could of had a baby the Whole hospital bill would of been paid for. So I am sad. Sad at my life circustances. 
deebatree deebatree
41-45, F
3 Responses May 19, 2011

I am 42 and had a hysterectomy in 2009 due to endometriosis. I always wanted to be a mom. It really hurts when i see others having babies.

I know how you feel. I just found out that I can't have babies. After 3yrs of my husband an I trying we found out tha my insulin levels are so high that It caused me to be infertile I don't have a monthly cycle anymore. I'm the only one out of both sides of my family that can't have kids and that doesn't have kids. My heart breaks daily cause I see everyone around me family and friends with there babies/kids. I wish that I had the money to at least adopt, but adoption is a lot of money who can really afford it. I feel less of a women cause I can't give my husband children. He doesn't think I am but I feel that way.

Yes, I agree with Venus. I dont have children and used to feel sorry for myself but due to a family member I know the bad side, how things dont always go as you hope and dream