I lived with my first boyfriend from when I was 17 until I was 27. He was very abusive and I went on bc. I didn't want to have children with someone that was so unpredicatble. When we broke up he went on to have five children with two women. It took me a long time to get over things because I always wanted to have my own child someday. But it never happened. Now I'm 36 and I've met a wonderful man who treats me good and loves me. But he can't have children, ahhhh. Its so frustraing, because I don't think he understands. He had a vasectomy two years before he met me. He's 42 and he said he didn't want any children before he met me. He said he try to get a reversal but even that is not a grantee. Im on facebook and all my friends have pictures of their kids. It just really kills me when people ask me if I have any children or when are we going to have our own.. No understands and I have no one to talk about it with.