like i wonder sometimes why ive allowed u in so close to me. why have i tried to make u a best friend, when i dont think u really care. sometimes i wish i could go away for a while. sometimes its like a bitter sweet thing. theres something about u that always draws me in. i can never figure it out. i wish i could. i feel like id understand so much better. id be able to handle all this better. i wouldnt annoy u with my feelings. though that was a simple fix. just turn them off. which surprisingly went much easier and faster than i thought. still though i wonder sometimes why i desperately want to get so close to u. we dont have much in common. we talk less than ive ever talked to someone. sure we "talk" almost every day but not a regular conversation. most times it takes u forever to respond and i constantly have to be sharing or figuring things to talk about. so i wonder about myself. i look at myself and think of how stupid i am. i almost think u remind me of the father i never really had. how harsh, aggressive, confident, all the things that made him, him. u are just like him.
SadisticPsychoBitch SadisticPsychoBitch
31-35, F
Aug 29, 2014