My favorite movie is The Notebook, and I cry every time I watch it, because it speaks to my heart and makes me want to have a relationship like Allie's and Noah's.... Am I really hoping for to much and setting my expectations to high?

Does true, unconditional love exist? And if it does, how does one go about finding it?

One of my life goals is to have a relationship where in I get to experience love at its fullest. But am beginning to wonder if I will accomplish this or not. based off the first 41 years of my life, its easy to assume that it's just not in the cards for me. With my 42nd birthday just around the corner and figuring I've already lived over half my life and have had numerous dead end relationships that weren't even worth being apart of.

I've been in love a few times, and married once, but nothing has lasted except my relationship with Dan, who is also my ex husband that I've been with off and on for 25 years, over half my life, but that too, is ending.

The one time that I actually fell in love with a great man, who was everything I wanted and exactly what I needed, who treated me the best out of them all, that I dated for a year but ended up breaking up with him, just before he was going to ask me to marry him, because I wasn't over my ex yet and couldn't let go of the past. It proved to be the biggest mistake of my life!

Maybe we only get one chance at experiencing true love, and I threw mine away. Whose to say?
Sandalwood3 Sandalwood3
41-45, F
Aug 19, 2014