I Am Bi Curious But I Want To Experiment With My Straight Best Friend
Okay....this is a very long story but i will try and keep it as simple as possible. I am going to be a senior in highschool. I have always been attracted to girls but every once in a while i will see a guy that catches my eye that I cant help but be attracted to. My bestfriend since 3rd grade has been the one guy that i have stayed attracted to. I am pretty positive i have been in love with him for a little while. I used to fight my feelings towards him but recently i couldnt resist. He has always been touchy feely with me (tickles me, wrestles me, and will even play with my nipples) at first i brushed it off because i didnt want to be gay but because he did it so often, I finally started to do it back. I thought he was like me and was kinda curious but what happened next made me think again. I started flirting with him and would occasionally try and make a move towards him by "accidentally" groping his manhood while we wrestled . He would then get pretty serious and not want to fool around any more. I guess i should have taken this as a negative sign but im a stubborn person and i would send him clues or signals by bringing up my penis. Im a pretty confident guy and i wanted him to know what i was packing so i told him in a sneaky way. At first he though i was joking but i told him i was serious and when i asked him how endowed he was, we would quickly try and change the subject (i dont know if he was ashamed of his size or if he was uncomfortable with me being a dude). but anyways i got tired of beating around the bush and told him i was curious and wanted to experiment by going down on him. he responded with "that is weird, im not gay". And even though he made it clear he was straight, he still insisted on being touch feely with me even though i pretty much told him i wanted his ****. If he isnt interested in doing anything sexually with me, why does he constantly rub my nipple, wrestle me, and tickle me? He is teasing me so bad but he wont go any farther than that! Do you think is is fighting his true feelings like i was or is he genuinely straight. Is there something i could do to get him to open up to me because i really want him!!!! (We also sleep together in the same bed sometimes and he doesnt mind either of us just wearing boxers) He has also seen my schlong fully erect while i was pretending to sleep but acted like he didnt see a thing when I asked him about it.