Grew Up Differently- Now Don't Know Last Names

I grew up in foster care, and Children's homes. As this meant going from place to place and not always learning people's last names, now I only remember their first names and even in old journals, all I have is first names.

I sometimes look obsessively for old 'friends' because it seems as though everyone has childhood friends and sometimes I just wonder how people are doing. I can't find people without last names though. Most sites like facebook don't have alumni area's for shelters and children's homes so I can't even check there. I do searches like "I lived in a children's home" and "blah blah shelter" etc. but have only tracked down 2 people in the last 10 years.

Sometimes I wonder if people ever look for me or even remember me, the way I look for them. Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one like this. If I'm the only one who has a past that's just missing. Does anyone at all look for me or even care who I was or that I'm still here besides the people I know now?

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26-30, F
Mar 24, 2009