Eh....

I sit here, with tears in my eyes, trying not to show it, and trying to keep it together, for the sake of my friends, but I can't help but have all these doubts, and all these thoughts running through my head. I often wonder, why am I not good enough to get the text message 1st, or hell, a text message at all, Why do you feel the need to have to LIE to me, and tell me you don't have a phone right now, but I talk to someone else, and they say they were just texting you! Really, just tell me you don't want to talk to me, or you don't have time for me anymore. I rather you be honest and hurt me now, than lie to me, so I hurt twice as much. I am sitting here wondering what the hell happened, we use to be so damn close! What happened to make me not, be important, and not matter anymore. You have no idea how bad it makes me feel when you feel the need to LIE to me, instead of just telling me, either, you don't want to be freind's anymore, or something else! I am sitting here, feeling so REJECTED, so ALONE, feeling like I have to go through all of this, so damn ALONE!
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3 Responses Jul 12, 2010

Hey,i have been in these situations once,infact the chance is we all experience this often times in a lifetime,but like i did in those lonely times,i just remember the good times.Cheer up,it wud pass by,just love yourself.

I do understand what you are experiencing. Keep writing down those emotions and yes the dreadful thoughts that pass through your mind. It helps!

Aww sweetie :( maybe they are just distracted or well I don't know, people get weird. I hope they answer you and give you peace of mind.