...Happy?

There are times that I wonder if I will ever be happy. If I will ever feel happy. I spend so much of my life making sure that others are happy. I never seem to have anything for myself. 

I want to take a step back, but I just can't seem to. There are so many times that I feel so completely alone, even when in a room full of people.

I just wonder .. if I will ever .. just.. be..