we were together for almost five years.she left me for someone else.she left me four months ago.life makes no sense without her and i feel like the greater part of me has died..my heart is literally aching every day without her in my life..i know that i have to find myself again..i need to heal..i need to rebuild my life without her in it..but that is the hardest part. no-one ever loved me as much as she did,she used to tell me i was beautiful,she used to make me feel safe and secure..now that is all gone..i miss the comfort of her presence..i don't know if i'll ever find that in anyone else.
it feels like i may never find someone who will make me feel the way she made me feel..i am depleted of energy..my soul feels empty without her..she was the biggest part of my life,i built my world around her..she was enough for me..i didn't need anything else.
it feels like i have nothing to give now..i know that i am far from ready to meet anyone..i am still hurting over her.
my friends say that time will heal my broken heart..that i will meet someone one day..but the love that i feel for her is so deep that i don't think that anyone will ever measure up.
she is with someone else..she is happy with this new woman..i know that there is no chance of us getting back together.
but still..i crave her company,her love,her voice,her arms around me,snuggling up with her at nighttime..
now i am alone in the flat that used to be 'our home'..the flat that used to have a heartbeat within it..now it feels so empty here..like a tomb..the silence is too much for me..the loneliness unbearable..the thought of her in someone elses arms rips my heart apart.
so..i wonder if i will ever be able to fall in love with anyone else..when my every waking moment is filled with thoughts of her..what i had..and what i lost