I Can't Escape It

I constantly feel this devious side of me coming out! I lust over almost any man that gives me the right look or says the right thing. I'm married, have a kid a good job a beautiful house. Yet I am always chasing this feeling. I started chasing my feelings when I was a young teen, I thought I'd grown out of it when I got married but it just got shoved in the back of the closet. Someone I used to chat with about 10 yrs ago just sent me a msg and I feel like it's 2002 again, my hormones are racing, there's an older man telling me how he used to feel and I know he still does. We're both married now!!! How can we feel this way?!? I married too young, I thought I was saving myself from myself but I just stunted myself! What am I going to do ?! I keep trying to get passed it and temptation is everywhere !!!!
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2 Responses Nov 28, 2012

Everyone wonders what might have been and the grass is always greener on the path untraveled. It sounds like you are a passionate woman who simply enjoys the richness of life, remember not everything has to be mutually exclusive there is nothing wrong with a bit of fantasy, it also sounds like you want to rediscover the woman you were 10 years ago, but always be forward looking, be the person you want to be not the person you were.

You have found out. Marriage sucks.

Ownership, dependency, deceit.

Happens all the time.

Explore an open relationship with your husband or be prepared to be miserable for the rest of your life.

Been there, done that.