Just Waaaayyyy Too Much

Sometimes when I begin to wonder about things ... I think I go over board because then I start to wonder about everything. ................ I wonder: What am I doing with my life? Am I even doing this right? Where is this going to take me? Why do I feel like I am failing at everything? What did I do wrong? What is the truth? What am I supposed to be doing? What is in my future worth waiting around for? Why am I here? Who really cares? Who is telling the truth and who is lying? Why do things happen the way that they happen? Why did I say that? Why didn't I say that? Why do people pretend? Why are some people so fake, what are they hiding that they can't be real? Is this my last day? How will I die? When will I die? Will I die a fast death? Will I die a slow and painful death? What if I am already dying? What if I had a baby? What if I were married? What if I were poor? What if I moved away? Where would I go? What would I do? What if I could just drop off the face of the earth? What if things were different? What if I were a completely different person? What if I walked out? What if I weren't so responsible? What if I never got to close? What if I never fell in love? What if I were a guy? Why do I have feelings? Why do I even care? Why am I so caring? Why do I care so much about others more than I do myself? Why do I let people take me for granted? Why do I let some people step all over me? Am I really happy? Do I really want to be here? Do I really feel the way I do or am I forcing it? (actually no I don't wonder about that one ... for some people I might) ................ Anyway ... I could on forever ... thats just a piece of the puzzle.
LosingIt LosingIt
22-25, F
1 Response Apr 13, 2007

you and me both when I get into that mind set I do the same thing it's hard to control and with me I always tend to think negatively on the outcomes. I really need to stop doing that. we'll get it under control one day