Back In the Day I Did the Dance Played With Those Who Played

Always wanted to be happy left to wonder if this is possible Having seen and done things one should not. Have loved and been loved but this will not last long for I love and hate myself at the same time. Expecting, demanding the unrealistic .Feeling like an alien that understands pain.All I want to know where have all the real people gone they have sold out to the lies. If we as a people stop searching fo truth all that is left are lies. Life has been an experience and experiment perpetrated by myself and others. I find that I can not step back forward is all I know. I run on pure adrenalin pumping in self destructive ways. Always wanting to fly again but grounded by my medications.I will find again people who mean what they say and say what they mean why do we have to go through the maze of all the lies. I can be different and have been from a small boy always challenging the powers within and the powers without. Search for truth where oh where has it gone. People are not willing to do the right thing for many times this means that we put ourselves aside after all this is the me generation. I am fifty one years young over amped hard rocker who many times wishes he were dead because the truth can rock your world. It is better to rock than to die.
jmp jmp
46-50, M
Jul 11, 2007