Back In the Day I Did the Dance Played With Those Who Played

Always wanted to be happy left to wonder if this is possible.  Having seen and done things one should not.  Having loved and been loved , love does not last long for I love myself and hate myself at the same time.  Always expecting and demanding the unrealistic.  Feeling like an alien that understands pain.  I want to know where have all the real people gone have they sold out to lies.  If we as a people stop searching for truth all that will be left are lies. Life has been an experience also an experiment perpertrated by myself and others.  I find that I can not step back for foward is all I know. I run on pure adrenalin pumping in destructive ways jolting my heart and mind.  Just want to fly again being grounded by my medications.  Will I find people again who mean what they say and say what they mean?  Do we all have to go through a maze of lies.  From a small boy always challenging the powers within and the powers without.  Searching for truth where has it gone?   Are we willing to do the next right thing? This means that we put ourselves aside even though this is the me generation. I am a fifty one years old over amped  metal head that many times wishes he were dead because the truth can rock your world.  It is better to rock out than to die out. SO ROCK ON PEOPLE!!
jmp jmp
46-50, M
Jul 11, 2007