The Last 20 Years Went By In A Flash.

It seems like last month that I was starting my studies at university, but it was 20 years ago. I started an Arts degree, but gave up after 6 months because it wasn't going where I wanted. Two years later, I switched to Info Tech at the equivalent of a community college. 7 years after starting the Arts degree, I was back at university continuing my IT studies. By this time, Mum had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's, so when I wasn't studying, I was bussing back & forth (I didn't have a car) to help her get to doctor's appointments or checking that she had medication, and checksheets to help her keep track of when she had to take medicine (I still have some of the green paper here that I printed those sheets on. Green was her favourite colour).

Some days I feel a bit like I'm ready to move into a retirement village already. I feel like I have less in common with those who have had a steady supply of work than those who have - for one reason or another - been unable to work or just unable to find anyone who will employ them. Life has slipped by while I was trying to prepare myself for a better kind of work (I was tired of doing manual labour and figured study might allow me to move away from it) and now I'm finding it pretty much impossible to find paid work for the industry that I wasted so much time working towards.

The lesson here is, if you know anyone in the industry, ask them if you can do some unpaid work, so that you can get a bit of work experience and maybe a good work reference for your resume too. I'm currently engaged in some work experience which has been very tiring. Longer commute than I've ever had to do for paid work, so it makes for a long day by the time I get home. And before I attempted this, I was only awake for about 12 hours of the day usually. When you're not working - and depressed - it's cheaper to sleep than be awake worrying about time slipping away from you... and eating. If you're asleep, you're not eating, thus you may not be spending quite so much. That might sound strange, but I know from experience that it's true for me, at least.

Even though the work is wearing me out, I have enjoyed some of the things that they have me trying to do. It's been a long time since I've attempted much programming and now I've been forced to do some and have been more successful at it than I would have though possible these days (though there are times when it feels a bit like my brain's on fire. It feels a bit like some of the cogs up there are refusing to turn. LOL).
Koala1964 Koala1964
51-55, M
8 Responses Jul 23, 2010

hahahaha. I don't mind advice, but there are some things I feel comfortable doing and others I'd rather let other people do.

Oh well, real good at giving other people advice when I should be working on myself.

That sounds a bit like a managerial role. I'm not fond of telling people what to do. I'd prefer to be doing :D<br />
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I was involved in community theatre for years, but gave it away when I started study. Between Mum's illness and study, there wasn't much spare time.

Maybe you could do something in that field on a smaller level - like finding a local community theater or starting one for kids and helping them create a play.

True. If I were to do the 'work' that I loved, it would be on the stage. I loved acting, but fear I've left it too long to pursue it.

Dude, My favorite color is green and my mother has Alzheimers too. Small world, big country, But seriously I know what you mean. I thought I would have my life figured out by now. That.s why I always offer people advice to find jobs they love and they will never work a day in their life. Easier said than done right.

You know? Which bit were you referring to? Or was it an overall agreement with the idea of how time can slip away? :-)

i know