I loved him. He felt like my best friend that I could completely be me and share myself and give myself completey too. I did for years too. Even to this day, I feel that I could completey expose everything about me to him. I felt so secure emotionally with him. I thought this man would love me forever. That is why I got married, but things got real dysfuntional and complicated. I will not be growing old with the man I married because our marriage is over.