I Wonder Why
I wonder why I am such an idiot on the Internet? Do you know I have actually let some folk be really horrible to me? and then more often than not I end up apologising to them. In my life I am one of those folk that asks how you are and listens to the answer I work with people so do a lot of interacting but also as I come across as strong and capable, folk very rarely ask me am I doing fine? and for a few years I wasn't doing fine I wasn't doing well at all! but being me I did not say and nobody noticed so I would still get remarks like ' It's OK for you' or 'You're fine we don't have to worry about you!' When I think back to that time I can just remember a grey sad time and a lot of it I can not remember at all.
Now back to the net, on here I have become the same I listen to how everyone feels and their problems and as in my life I have let them think I am this super women who's life is perfect, I have not told them it is, they just assume It all. Some I chat to ( I should add I chat to nobody on this site, I only write bits and bobs) are lovely and have become distant friends but I have a couple who for some reason seem to see it as their right to be horrible, so why not tell them to get lost? I don't know maybe I feel they would win if they realised I knew what they were up too and they still make me smile at times or maybe I am lonely and just like to chat OR which is most likely I am an idiot! LOL. There is one I have been chatting with for over a year and in a way I think he is quite sweet. Now he tells me how mean his wife is and how he can only creep on to the computer when she goes out to the bar with friends and leaves him with the kids, and I am his only friend. he says he talks with no one else! All together now, awww! Trouble is the daft devil has not sorted his privacy settings so I can see his friends list which is as long as your arm!!! and all women and that makes me laugh! And the daft thing is, he keeps hinting he wants us to get on the camera and..... well I don't need to tell you I'm sure. But what makes me laugh is I don't tell him to get lost I apologise for not wanting to!! Ha ha ha ha IDIOT? yes I think so!!
Now back to the net, on here I have become the same I listen to how everyone feels and their problems and as in my life I have let them think I am this super women who's life is perfect, I have not told them it is, they just assume It all. Some I chat to ( I should add I chat to nobody on this site, I only write bits and bobs) are lovely and have become distant friends but I have a couple who for some reason seem to see it as their right to be horrible, so why not tell them to get lost? I don't know maybe I feel they would win if they realised I knew what they were up too and they still make me smile at times or maybe I am lonely and just like to chat OR which is most likely I am an idiot! LOL. There is one I have been chatting with for over a year and in a way I think he is quite sweet. Now he tells me how mean his wife is and how he can only creep on to the computer when she goes out to the bar with friends and leaves him with the kids, and I am his only friend. he says he talks with no one else! All together now, awww! Trouble is the daft devil has not sorted his privacy settings so I can see his friends list which is as long as your arm!!! and all women and that makes me laugh! And the daft thing is, he keeps hinting he wants us to get on the camera and..... well I don't need to tell you I'm sure. But what makes me laugh is I don't tell him to get lost I apologise for not wanting to!! Ha ha ha ha IDIOT? yes I think so!!
By:
dustydaisy
Age:
51-55
,
Female
