More Than I Can Bear
I have worked at a Vet Office and Boarding Kennel for more than 1 1/2 yrs. Recently I was hired by a vet hospital to train to become a tech. Now most of my experience in the past was strictly in reception. I was so excited. I wanted to have more time with the pets.
What I didn't realize was the physical toll this would have on my body. First of all this job requires that I stand on my feet continuously for more than 5 hours straight. So not only endless standing I need to be able to lift heavy tools, clean poop and urine, endlessly clean and endure demeaning tasks.
The one thing that took me over 6 months to get used to at my previous job was not having any type of break in an entire day. I thought maybe it was just that company that broke that federal law (you know by law all employees are supposed to get 15 min break for every 4 hours worked). Now I have realized that even though I asked at both interviews about break time, they both said that I they provided it and both did not. At the previous place the owner would take out 1/2 hour of pay as if I got that break, though I was never able to take it (you know someone might come in and need help). The second place doesn't do this, yet I still don't get a break.
Even though I really like caring for animals, the small amount of time I get with the animals, doesn't make up for the hours of excruciating pain I have to endure. I am so disappointed. There so many tasks it takes the most athletic employee to complete them in the allotted time. The girl who trained me is about 19 or 20. She's young and athletic, for her this type of work is a cinch.
I know I sound like I'm ungrateful. I should be lucky I got accepted for a job. I should just shut up, grin and bear it. Yeah, that's what I have been trying to do. The main problem is that I'm not going to be able to complete all the work in the time allotted. Right now my trainer is helping me do the work, though eventually I'll be expected to do it all by myself. I can barely achieve it with her help, so there's no way I'll be able to do it by myself. Also, I think I should be honest with the company since they did give me this chance.
Right now typing this, my feet are on fire AND I'M SITTING! The only time they don't hurt as much is when I'm asleep. I had trouble sleeping last night because I was in so much pain. I kept waking up every couple of hours with sharp pains stabbing my legs and feet. Today while at work I did get to sit down in the only chair available, I felt a strange tingling feeling, like my feet were being rained upon by ice cubes, I've never felt this before. I sat there 5 minutes. I almost fell asleep. I was exhausted only 4 hours into my shift and I had plenty of time to go.
I finished my shift, I didn't think it would be right to leave in the middle of my shift. You see, I'm really bad at quitting. I always keep on thinking maybe I can endure it, I just need to get used to being in pain continuously. Though today I realized I have limitations and I must tell my supervisor about my struggle. When I came home I cried. I almost cried when I was there, though I held it back. So at home I let it out. In fact I've been completely exhausted and ready for bed the minute I got off. Though I didn't want to go to sleep and then wake up when it was time to go to bed. So I've forced myself to stay awake.
UPDATE: I'm no longer at this position. It was much too overwhelming for me and now I realize that I can no longer apply to work at Vet Hospitals, it's just not my forte.