What If That Never Happens?What IF, no one else can ever make me feel that way again? it's been fairly unmatched so far since i met him. i thought i had great chemistry with a couple people before him but...i wasn't prepared for....well HIM i guess lol
it was instantaneous. there was a great vibe right away...end of March 2009. i liked him right away....and just kept right on liking him despite the difficult situations we went through since then til the end...November 7, 2010. the last day i saw him, talked to him, kissed him. and i pray to God that he never comes back or re-enters my life.
but i want what he made me feel...with someone else. is that even possible? the same personality, the same way he kissed me...and omg he knew how to kiss me...the chemistry....i want all of that, wrapped up in someone else. i'm not sure that's ever going to happen. and every person from now on...will be compared to that....that, HE and how he made me feel, is now the standard i've set. so far, no one has even come close. Right now, i hate his guts and wouldn't be able to stand the sight of him if i ever saw him again....but i would also probably kiss the sh*t out of him and have him out of his clothes in like negative two seconds lol
i miss him today. not really HIM, but all the good feelings i had with him.
is it gonna be possible to have that with anyone else? if i ever do, i'll have to marry him lol