Want To Be Free In My Life.....

I have constant concern for those around me--especially family. I often forget about my own self and get to a point where I don't even know what I want myself worrying too much about what others are thinking about me or how I am making them feel. I am in a relationship that my family does not approve of or acknowledge yet I am fully committed and happy in it. Unfortunately my feelings about how much my family is not on board with my life decisions takes away from the feelings I have for my partner. Looking for relief, confidence, and the ability to let go and live my life for me!
mkmay mkmay
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 26, 2010

Thank you for your posting! I am still with my girlfriend and in a better place now...stronger for myself. It's a struggle everyday with my family, but I hope in time things will get somewhat easier. Good luck to you!

I am in the same boat as you. Tho I don't really care for others or my friends, my family is very important to me and their approval. I've been this way evver since I was a little girl. I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for about 6 months and I am so happy being with him. When I'm hanging out with him or when I'm with him I feel that I forget about all my uncertainties and I just feel so comfortable. The problem is that my parents don't approve of this relationship and have threathened to disown me. I am now at the age where I can fully support myself and I don't really need my parents permission to date my boyfriend but I don't want to disappoint them or upset them. They are making me choose between them and my boyfriend. I want to live for myself also, but at what price? I realize that this was written last year but I'm curious about the decision that you made.