I Need To Rid Myself Of This Pain.....

I would give my life to save any one who wants or needs it. I am at the verge of suicide. I am not woried about what I am leaving behind as it was all taken away from me. My kids, my house, my love of my life, my money, all my stuff does not even matter  anymore. I can bear to see how I could start over. I cant work or concentrate as I am falling into depression and I have no one to hold me or help me through this. I committed a self distructive act while I was in depression and am now paying the price. I am loosing all my abilities to think and work as I use to. I had great potential at one time but all I can see now is darkness. It hurts to hang myself and takes to long to do. I want to be quick but I want to give what I have last to any one that wants it. I will give up my life to anyone that needs a heart, lungs, kidney, anything and or everything. I am healthy but in so much emotional pain. I need to end my pain. so I will give up my life to save yours, as long as my life ends right as yours is being saved.
NoComfort NoComfort
3 Responses Nov 14, 2010

I think sometimes we should choose the better. Death is not always the solution

Please don't do anything to hurt yourself or end your life. I know that right now it seems hopeless and you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, but believe me, things will get better sweetheart, you just have to hang in there! I'm so sorry that everything has been taken away from you, but even if your kids aren't with you right now, they are still your children, and how do you think that would affect them if you took your own life? They would NEVER get over something like that, and I'm sure that you have people in your life who love you and would also be devastated. Obviously your ex wasn't the love of your life or you would still be with her, and I'm sure that you'll see that one day when you have had time to heal. Look at all of this as a chance to start a new life, one in which you can find happiness for yourself. Now you don't have to worry about putting anyone else first except for yourself, and that's the best time to reflect and seek out the things in life that will make you happy. I've had to start over so many times, I'm starting to feel like a pro at it, so I know what you're going through. But it's kind of like a forest fire...the only way to start over fresh and new is to destroy all of the old trees that are blocking out the sunshine to make way for new life. You're going to be okay, and I know that it's the hardest thing in the world to believe in yourself when it seems that everything you've worked for has been taken away, but trust me, things will get better if you'll allow them to. Dust yourself off, and focus on you, because that's what's important right now. If you need to talk, please send me a message and PLEASE don't do anything that you can't undo. Keep your head up, and if it helps, spend time doing something that you love...fishing, reading, writing...whatever would get your mind off of things and would help you relax and destress. Remember that you are important and have a purpose in this world, but you won't figure out what that purpose is unless you stay.

I understand. I'm not saying "go ahead"; just that I get what you're saying.