Don't Believe Everything You Here

I wish I could go back in time and realize my a-hole of a dad was wrong when he told me "you are so ugly-looking no girl in her right mind will ever want you." He said it daily. For hours on end.

when you hear that every day you believe it. By the time I realized it wasn't true--my late 30s--it was too late because believing my "dad"(real dad but dead to me still)I never took care of myself and now have no teeth whatsoever.

No teeth means no date. Can't say I blame the girls. i don't. Was a virgin until I was 35 then had some alcohol and worked up the nerve to go see a hooker. Wasn't enjoyable. Guess I wanted a relationship. Who doesn't?

Can't affrord a dentist so spend way too much time without a female. And never had a date. Wish I did. Hell at my age I'd settle for a female friend. And because of what I missed I prefer a certain age group(trying to subconsciously I guess make up for what I never had).I honestly don't want sympathy but was dying for the longest time to explain and vent. Feels much better now getting this off my chest.

So anyway if I could go back in time I would not listen to what my "dad" says and would've taken better care of myself.

Though it may be too late for me if any young boys and girls come across this I beg you to NOT LISTEN if someone tells you you're ugly. You're very beautiful. If you can get away from such people. You'll be much happier as I am now. We all are beautiful in one way or another. Nobody was there for me in this instance but I want to be there for people who are told that. Look in the mirror every day and say "I am beautiful" 10 times or more everyday for the rest of your life. The more you say it the more you'll believe it.

 

nobodyimportant nobodyimportant
46-50, M
1 Response Apr 16, 2007

I am so sorry this happened to you too. My mom told me I was ugly as a child. I believed her. I suppose i believe her still. But I have had dates and am currently married to a wonderful man. So there is hope.