since I have been held at night. I miss the emotional intimacy of just being held, of just having someone there. After a long day, knowing they are there, whether they hold me all night, or just for a few minutes it does not matter. But I lead a "single" life in the bedroom. He sleeps on the couch and I get the bed. I miss the waking up to someone holding me, or rolling over and putting my arms around someone for a few minutes. Its not much to ask, I just want someone to hold me. The connection, the feeling, the warm body, the strong arms holding me. It is something I took for granted and I do truly miss it. But that probably will never happen in this life again, it will have to be something I will have to find in the future.