I have always longed for a soul mate since a very early age, but I have never found him. I was married once, met lots of guys, had lots of dates and some relationships. Nonetheless he was never there.
Even if I don't think about it, I know I am always looking for him. I am always testing guys on how much soul mate material they could be. It is a bit crazy. When I meet a guy, I don't ask myself immediately if he is my soul mate, but as my interest progresses, I find myself wondering.
It is tiring though. I want to stop this and just give up on finding him. I think it will be a big relief if I just turn off this search.