What I Realized About MariageGrowing up I always said I wouldn't get married… here I am almost 7 years married to the same guy. I regret getting married so young. I was 19 had 1st child at 20 and my 2nd at 22. I have been unhappy from day one but chose to stick it out because i figured this is where God wanted me to be. This is his plans. I also figured we have kids I have to stay for them. While he is deployed at this moment, I can't wait to end this marriage. I am deciding to do it after I finish school next year. Is it wrong to use his veteran benefits to finish my school even though I plan on leaving him? I have to determine when I will do it. He loves me very much that I can tell but i am not happy to be with him. i look at him and i'm annoyed. I don't want affection, i don't care to have sex. I have told him in his face before that i don't love him or find him attractive.
These things may be harsh but that is how i felt at that time. he still wanted to be with me. i feel like the scum bag here but he is not what i want. and i keep having the urge to find someone new but really don't have time to look. i feel stuck at times because life is good financially right now and i will lose materialistic stuff like our on ba