Risk Vs. Reward

I have never been in love or even been on a date. I thought that I dealt with unrequited love several times, but it was just a limerence as a result of a mental illness. I'm not even sure if I want to be in love. These episodes of limerences sure were exciting, but when I think about real relationships, you know, good relationships, where its just two people living together and stuff, it seems boring and uninteresting. And since I'm not having sex and creating children and breaking hearts, I don't really know why I need to be married. What is the obligation to society if you're not living irresponsibly? I don't like someone having to live with me. I think that I would be worse to live with than most people and most men. Part of me wants to know what it is to be in love, but I'm afraid to risk it and wind up married to someone who gets bored with me or can no longer tolerate me. I'm OK enough being alone.
starchman starchman
26-30, M
1 Response Sep 8, 2012

Hey, I am sorry to hear that you have never experienced a deep love to a women before. Don't worry about love because you can't find love it finds you.

Being in love is not like in the movies, most often you fall in love with someone that does not love you and you end up alone with feelings that are not appriciated. Even worse if the one you fell in love with tells you to shove it up your ***...yes that happens to. I guess they forgott about those stories in Hollywood. Hehe.

Is it worth it? The first or second time after that you start to pray not fall in love with anyone again. :) You can live a happy and exiting life without thank god! :)