AfraidI have been single for my whole life. Never had a girlfriend. Never asked a girl out. Never had a date. You get the picture.
I don't know why I have never tried. I have seen my love ones go through relationships and seeing that makes me hesitant to even try. My brother has had some hard relationships. My Uncle has been divorced. My parents always seem to be fighting. So yeah I have seen so many negatives when it comes to relationships that makes me go I don't want that. What if I turn into that. What if this happens. It's scary. Then you hear about people cheating. And it's like why would you subject yourself to something like that. Granted I know I am not perfect. I am far away from perfect. But something about just seeing negatives just makes you not want to go into something you aren't sure about.
Which is even made weirder when you get lonely. You wish for this and you wish for that. It's a mixed bag. So confusing. So frustrating. So complicated. Love can be like that I guess.