Here We Go Again

Same old crap different day.  I've met a few really nice women in the last several weeks.  Nothing at all wrong with them;  smart, pretty, good sense of humor, lots of stuff in common.  But I can't go 2 weeks without losing interest in everybody I meet.  It's not them, it's me.  It has to do with the things that have happened in my past and the effects they have had on me.  I keep people so distant, that nobody can get close enough for me to actually fall in love.  I've been burnt so bad, that I don't think I'm capable of loving anyone, even if they love me.  I would just end up hurting them emotionally and then I would feel even worse.  I get rid of everybody I date because if I don't, I'm aftaid they'll get really attached and then they will be really hurt when I bail.  And I always bail, it's just a matter of when.  I can't open up to anybody, and as long as that is the case I'll be alone.  I don't think it will ever change.

jack1970b jack1970b
31-35, M
3 Responses Feb 7, 2010

Thats a tough one! On the one hand you want these women but on the other your afriad of hurting them. Probably best to be honest with them from that start and hopefully one day you'll meet someone really understanding who can take it your pace! Good luck!

I feel you man. You can change because you are looking at it now. You need to roll the dice. Easier said than done from where I'm sitting but I can tell you as someone whose heart has been handed back to him looking like hamburger that if you wall yourself off and let yourself be hurt then things won't change. And that sucks worse than reaching out again

I hear you.