I Would Rather Be Myself And Disliked Than Fake And Adored
As those closest to me know, I have Asperger, as do three of my children. It makes me a little quirky, and yes a bit weird. Okay I can be blunt, tactless and my sense of humour is never aligned with anyone else’s. But I really have grown to love myself this way. I am fortunate to be low on the spectrum giving me some wonderful gifts, and not so many of the associated negative traits; though they are certainly there.
I am not sure if it’s because of my AS, but I am daily intrigued by the complicated and amazingly intricate interactions of human beings. How they think, and what motivates some to do what they do, it is an endless source of wonder for me. I am also flabbergasted by the lack of understanding, care and acceptance displayed regularly. I guess maybe that is because living with difference means I am happy to accept life is not the normal one way street, many seem to want it to be. None of us will ever fit the mould of someone else, because we were all made individually. Anyway, I quite enjoy two way streets, narrow lane ways, dead ends and busy highways.
Because I may not fit someone’s ideals, does not make me any less a person, or any more a person. It just makes me honest with myself, to be who I am and not something someone else wants me to be, in order to be liked. After all we don't all like each other, its human nature.
As this groups says, I would rather be myself, regardless if anyone likes it or not, because it shows I am not the one with any real issues, as I don’t need to be something I am not.
