Really It's A Lot Of People At This Point

I say and even prove I Care

and then what do I Do?

I try to control people more than actually give a ****

I wall that part of myself off

because it’s too bruised

‘m very good at making people think i give a **** about them right up until they indulge me somewhat and then i’m TERRIBLE at showing that I actually care because i’m so lost in thought I don’t hear theirs

it’s supposed to be two way but it’s always too much me.

At a certain pointI can’t blame

others for everything because it’s a consistent PATTERN

there’s a lesson in all of this.

if I Don’t learn it it is hard to imagine breaking the cycle

I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there…

first impressions never matter because they’re so easy to fake and they’re only skin deep.

I interact and talk a lot, go off on tangents but I Care more than all the stars in the sky.

ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix
31-35, M
Jan 15, 2013