To Begin

Before I can begin to heal myself, I know I must first understand what it is that has hurt me. What has hurt me, and why I feel this way, are not always obvious. Talking to people can help work through these things, but that requires bringing someone (and their ideas and opinions) onto the stage. I want to know myself, who I am, why I react the way I do... Often, when writing, I pause for a long time, to gather my thoughts - to scoop up them up as they float to the surface. I really have nothing else and no one will ever be able to understand me as well as I do. And, no one else but me (ultimately), can make me feel better. It is my responsibility to find my own center - to discover my own peace. If I never endeavor to understand who I am, I cannot even begin that journey.