I Have Trouble Getting In Touch With My Feelings

I Am Numb. I write a lot and I talk to myself probably even more. I was a youth pastor for many years and to some I am still a youth pastor. Things changed for me on June 3, 2012. This is the day my niece ended her life. She was a cutter, and was depressed. She blamed her mom and the world for all of her problems. She was angry at the world. 

At this time she fell through the hoops. I was in another country, and her Mom and sister lived in another state. Some things just burdened her down and she chose to commit suicide. I do not blame others and I do not blame my niece. I blame me because I did not take the time to truly try to understand her. 
MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor
46-50, M
1 Response May 7, 2012

I cried a tear for you today because I felt your pain; So many troubled and pain in this world; it just will not go away.<br />
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I cried a tear for you that you would know I would be by your side. For I know your pain is too great for you to walk alone.<br />
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I want to thank you Mary and Shelley for your comments and all of you who are walking be side me during this difficult time in my life. I love you all very much!