A Sacrifice For Not.

Why was i holding on so desperately for dear life?
As if i was already dead.
Awaiting hell to clam its prize
Did i know that was it?
Was i already in such desperate need?
Is that why i rose her up so high?
Making her my one true peace.
While at the same time hating her.
For giving this hope for salvation.
Why was i not awake?
When i chose her.
Why did i not know?
That i was drowning her within my self.
Deep in side my end.
How did it come to this?
When did i give in ?
How did i become so weak?
That i craved her.
That i some how guilt-ed her into my lies.
Making her my saver .
When she i had no idea of my want's.
She was just a little girl.
She had no role to play.
No idea of the game being played.
How stupid was i.
In hoping for forgiveness.
My hanging on to a sweet dream.
That never had a dreamer of its own to begin with.
Just what was i thinking ?
When did i awake to this hole i pushed myself into?
Why did no one stop me?
Why did they not see?
Why did i not see?
Why so weak ?
Why so human?
amicawinters amicawinters
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 30, 2012

Love your poems!