The Unwanted Memories (journal Poem)

Plagued with
Painful unwanted
Flashbacks

Over the
Past week.

This I
Don't like.

But it's
Unavoidable
And feeling
Helpless in my
Situation

Any sounds
I hear
Around my
Apartment

Sends me
Into those
Flashbacks
I rather not
Remember.

Feeling distressed
By my problems
Yet I sit
Quietly and
Accepts the
Nightmares
Attacking me,
Relentlessly.

Wondering how
Long I have
Until it
Passes?

I kept this
All to
Myself

Since I got
No social
Life at home
At all.

I just
Bury it in
My big yard
Of small holes
With buried
Problems.

As I
Struggle with
My limited
Supply of
Drugs for
The next two
Weeks.

I accepted
This, and
Knowing I'm
On my own.
noaht43 noaht43
46-50, T
Jan 20, 2013