But Still I Live...:

do you wonder why I get so sad
when all I have are false illusions
and the smiles were diseased lies
and every word I said caused pain

did you think that this would last
when you knew exactly how I am
I cant scream through cold cords
and im forced to fall on my knees

cant I save myself from you
and gain control of all I lost
do you know how I am feeling now
when every day I have to cry

do you wonder why I want to die
im wasting my time and lost it all
and it seems that I have failed
so I choke on everything you say

everything once turned red
and my hands kept on shaking
am I asking for too much
when all I want is time and you

did I waste it all with you
when all I have are broken wishes
and our world turned into reality
and I cant find a way out

what can I do when I feel lost
since you are gone the same way
and I hold the light and scream for you
but you are small and I cant see

the redness fades and I am left
trying to keep you from falling
im trying to find the way and will
but I am weak and keep on losing control

why do I let myself fail
when all I can do is watch the hours
everything eventually fades from my hands
but still I keep on loving you.