I Have Wasted Time

I have cried so many tears that my eyes are dry,
I have bled too much blood that I have now scarred skin,
I have seen too many pain that I have forgotten peace,
Life to me is broken secrets,
Are you going to face the fact,
Accept that I can not smile without it hurting.

I have fought me way through life that now I see no other way,
I have giving in so many times that I don't know when to back down,
I have held too many secrets that I don't know how to trust,
How can you breathe if it is poison,
What do you expect me to say,
Letting the wind carry me away.

I have screamed too loud that my voice is unheard,
I have tried my best that now I won't give up,
I have been awake for far too long that I can no longer dream,
Fighting each day so i can survive,
Looking beyond the pain,
Trying to take it one step at a time.

I have fell down too many times that I can't get up,
I have wished for nothing that I can no longer hope,
I have stayed still for far too long that I am frozen,
Waiting for the right moment,
Going to take my strike,
Freeing myself tonight.
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18-21, F
4 Responses Nov 18, 2012

There is so much pain in the world .it doesn't need more!

Talent girl with an awesome.poem ;)

feel your soul warm to your words.

Wow. I can feel your utter pain just reading it. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I hope someday you can find that missing peace in your life. That you would receive unconditional love from someone and you would be able to see the beauty in yourself too.

thanks :)