My Poetry Collection (7/1/2012-12/1/2012)

Lost In Hope


I’m losing faith, losing my ways; I have only few reasons to stay,
Why can’t find my fate, just for one date.

I feel life is still, it doesn't move to just anyone’s groove,
I am lost I have a cost, everything has a cost, in my heart I bought and fought,
Could I would I should I close the door and watch things go into the light,
I don’t like to say good bye, but I can’t lie,

I stayed strong, I kept hope, and fought back,

It was a noose that I nearly got hung in before it even begun,
I got loose, I fought, and in the end I got caught,

It was my soul that caught me, for I was a fool,

I feel stuck on rails that fail seem to go anywhere, but they are going somewhere and that place is nowhere.
Is it fair, should I care and bare with these thoughts I brought,
Should I continue to deal and feel these memories of remedies,
I think it’s sad it’s there,
But I fear it’s here to stay,

But then I hit the ground with a loud thump,
I look up near a stump and see a hunt of nothing of trying to bring something back,

I gave in I’m so close yet so far away, you win, back then, never again, will it be such,

I hope.





Second Piece To Lost In Hope


Be right,
Just because you’re near the light don’t mean it’s that bright,
If you do it stops and you drop,

My question to myself and you is... where... where is there...
Is there a home, a place to roam, inside a safe dome I’m almost* alone...

No one is dead they’re just dividing and hiding,
Except for a handful which I care for and bare with,
But the ones that are leaving are making me their dust,

And I don’t like to rust,

Just now as things got better they got worse,
I’m wowed like how,
The darkness is rising should I be crying,
I don’t even feel remorse or forced,

Only glad you are here instead of there,
It may not be much but at least it’s such.
I could also fight and I might,
But I hate burning light,

For now evil will be left and I will be right,
With my might we shall bring down what fights,
And bring on our lights not by burning but by removing what’s hurting,

Everyone find your path before feeling the wrath,
Bless the world for it is your pearl.





New Moons To Full Moons


From new to full moons,
I feel alive like a kick started electric amp,

I had no such intention I have to say I am doing not much to control what’s within,
It’s a power that’s no lower than the mind,
I look from behind only to see empty areas in this night,

Everything feels alright,
I am in sight with little to no light though still,

I am at my height on this night,
And I might lose it for I cannot prove it,
No one would care they don’t bare my stare,

Do I worry yes and no I’m always in a hurry,
But when time passes by I feel fine,
Then I run and the sun becomes the dome to fill my home,

Because I like the night to some it brings fright but to me I succumb to its sight,
For everything starts to feel right an in tone to the bone,
But when all is quiet I feel inside a riot that is internal and immortal,

Like I wait to seek to remove my hate but the chance is weak,
So I walk into the night to seek my sight,

I grab it tight and I might find the light,


For it has my key to heights to my fights
To my every being of rights,

But only in the night.





Tides Of Ourselves

Tides pull and push within like a rush of wind or the anger of a bull,

I question why I’m so far away from it yet I let it come back,
I lack something this I know,
Whoa how did I say wow just one simple question that makes me trickle with rust,
But do I bust no I don’t and I won’t,

I have to think,

I blink,

What does it mean am I being to lean,
I found that it isn’t home or the dome,
But what I seek makes me weak,
And it can cause me to leak,

What I seek isn’t money or power,
Those are for the lower who love the honey of hell,
What I seek has meaning it makes me weak yet strong,

Like the bond of love,

I seek closure an distance, I seek life of no more running, no more shunning, no more thinking,
I seek the true freedom of life,
And something that will end it,

To bring back purpose and happiness yet,
I will have to strive to find it,
And I fear there is none, for it is merely near yet far, it’s hard,
And I can’t break for it will wake in time,
I will find the fine line we all seek,

I’m the tide of those within, and I always come with a sin, may your part win.




Photo Books Of Old


The past is vast,

Like the cast of shadows in the dark of your mind,
They hold the black and white of all those photos that were left behind,
As they should have been,

You can’t deny your soul was to young even understand or comprehend,
In those photos of old,

Though you were told and we all still hold them,
We look back to see the future,
Of back when we were happy,
Back when we were sad,

Yes some of it is bad,
But it’s our key that we look in those photo books,
They have us all hooked,

Because of that I agree,
I look into mine thinking wow,
How was I so stupid,
I can’t believe the mess we made,
I forgot,

And now remember it’s like the gift of December,
Will I make those mistakes again,

Yes for some,

But most no,

But whoa why do I look back here is the answer,
I look in that book of the past and the photos within it,
To learn that the past is how I’m going to fix my future,
And the ones around me,
For that I won’t lose,
For who would take my place,
I declare this chapter closed,
And I will begin a new chapter,

If u agree,

Then go back,

Read those photos,

And come back with what lies within for that is how we all become wise,
It takes time to find what lies within the photos,
But it is a hope that will never make you mope,
It’s the past that brings us back,
It’s within us all it is how you can,

And will win,

There are no more sins within these photos,
Even though they are old,
It is what you hold,
For in its mold all can be told,

The past is vast,
And these photos shall,
And will never be the last.




Waiting For The Change


I am waiting,

For the shift the temporary lift,

It will become clear in time but it isn’t what I fear,
But what I hold dear and keep near,
For that is my fear that keeps me strong yet weak,

It’s why I leak so to speak,
In these howls of shame, of blames,
That turns to shouts that I hear and sometimes fear,
It does sometimes hurt and always lurks around hidden hoping to be ridden in the depths of my mind,
But a day and night will come to shift me,

To lift me,

I have sins that win on the darker days,
On the brighter days, I am light,
I will fight for everyone’s being of rights,
Even after death I will have left a bite so deep it will always creep,
When that day comes I will howl and run so fast it will tear out the evil of the past,
To save the innocent, I must rid the guilty,

For the guilty is the shame and they are to blame,
They will obey or pay, because I will not stop, I will go into full rage in a cage,
That they hold dear,
I will be the only one they fear,

I will take them all,
No more rights they will be found still and just,
For they do not care or want to bare responsibility for their actions,
With a single thrust I will leave them left behind to rust,

I will be the judge of nights,
I will be the one you hold tight,
I will be your sight to light the shadows,
So you don’t have to hide or abide in the depths of your mind within,

I wait for the night to shift,

For the lift to all,

That is the wolf within me,
Without a doubt,

I shout.





We Were One And Now we're Two.


the green trees, the blue skies, the brightest days, the darkest moons,

I see home,
I know we're both alone,
empty souls,
empty rooms,

we were light,
we were dark,
we were one,
now we're two,

we may be far,
and I know it's hard,
I miss days,
I miss nights,

I’m sure you do too,
we were one,
now we're two,
I am blue,
so are you,

please don’t go,
I just don't know,
where is home,
am I really alone,
I am a mixture of shadows and lights,

I am cold,
so are you,
I know you saw me,
I know it's true,

everything is gone,
yet I’m still holding you,
all may be lost,
but I’ll stay true,
because I love you,
and you know it's true,

please don't leave me,
I just don't know,
I am fall,
you are spring,
I am winter,
you are summer,
bring me home,
I miss you,

you are memories,
I am dreams,
you are my heart,
and I am your soul,
we were one,
now we're two,

come to me,
my remedy,
let's go home,
I miss you,
and you know it's true,

I can't cry,
I really want to,
you were my life,
and you know it's true,

I miss days,
I miss nights,
I’m sure you do too,
come to me my home,
I miss you,
stay by my side,
so it isn't so cold,

I am here,
you are there,
I miss you,
and I know you do too.





Seasons Change


Seasons are green,
Seasons are blue,
Seasons turn white,
Seasons turn brown,

We are born warm,
We can become cold,
We are dry and yet we can become wet,

Season’s change we do too,
I have tripped and had a nice fall,
I got cold on the ground,
Then a spring jumped me round,
I was glad then turned mad,
I got hot then fell down,

Again and again,

Seasons change and i do too,
We are born warm,
And we can become cold,
My emotions are dry,
But my soul is wet,
And yet it's flooded into such a mess,
My heart is blue,
My mind is brown,
My body is green,
And yet my thoughts turn white,

Season’s change we do too,
They age and never become grey,
They are alive they change our moods,
People age yes its true,
They affect natures tune,
And natures course,

We change too but we all become grey,
Listen to the wind,
Walk in the sun,
And walk in the night,
It is dark,
It is bright,

We forgot and now we must remember,
This tune of day,
And of night,

Let yourself wash it away,
So we all can become a blessing,
And all start anew by diminishing our pain,
Seasons change we do too but only you choose.





I Don't Care I Am Blank


I Don't Care you left me in the dust,
I don't care you left me to hopefully bust,

I don't care you made me rust,
I don't care you were not there when I needed you most,

I don’t care because now I’m wiser,
I’m a slightly better person,
I’m always under mental stress,
I’m always such a mess,

Though I let it for so long,
I punish myself for the sins I did,
Now I wait,

I wait for the day of change,
The day of peace,
The day of reckoning,

The day all will see me as what I am,

I wait for whatever comes for me,
I am alive but the soul I once had I killed years ago,

The innocent soul I killed years ago is nothing but a past,
I can't change the past,
At first I was too young and stupid then I tore it all apart by choice,
Someday I may rebuild,
But today and everyday I watch it fall,
I feel no remorse,

There is a part of me that is always there,
Robbing me,

Most days leaving me blank,
Other days punishing me,
Making me suffer,

Tomorrow change may come and I may not be there,
But I will remember because it won't let me forget,

Today he is what keeps me wake and what leaves me blank
I am him and he’s me.