Three Words.

You get to the point where you think life can't get any worse.
You have officially hit the bottom and the only way now is up.
So you start your long journey back to the top. You have many obstacles that you have to overcome and you get so close to the top.
You think you are going to make it.
You begin to think of all the amazing things waiting for you at the top. That's when he crossed your mind and the rocks beneath your feet begin to crumble.
You start to fall again, followed by a flood of memories that drowned you with emotion.
You are hit with so many things that use to make you smile.
But now all they do is make you cry.
They make you break down and ask yourself. Why, why me?
What did I do to deserve this?
All you want to do is make the pain go away. But it doesn't end.
You are then hit with that last memory.
You see him walking away from you and taking the hand of another girl. The girl he loves.
The girl he wants to be with for the rest of his life.
The girl you want so badly to be.
He walks away without so much as a goodbye.
He doesn't stop to see the way he affected you. He doesn't stop to see the pain he has caused. He doesn't see the tears that fall for him.
He doesn't notice that he has just broken your heart.
You sit back and watch their relationship flourish and there is nothing you can do to stop the tears that still fall for him. After all this time you still wish he was yours.
Even after all the pain he has put you through.
You wish there was some way you could show him how it would be with you. But you can't because he doesn't even give you the time of day.
He doesn't even acknowledge you.
Its like he removed you from his memory all together.
There are days where you just want to confront him and tell him exactly how you feel,
maybe it would make things different maybe those three words would change everything. Maybe they would help him open his eyes and see what he really needs is standing in front of him. But you don't because you are scared not about what others think but what he would think.
You don't want to ruin his life.
He is so happy,
happier then you have ever seen him.
So you keep it to yourself. Then one day comes where you see him and wants so badly to stand up on the closest table and just scream those words not caring who hears.
But you don't because you love him enough to let him go.
Lawshe Lawshe
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 16, 2013

Too many times this has happened to me in fact I have given up the climb, and decided to stay at the bottom of the pit.

You should never give up. You have to keep trying. There have been so many times that I just wanted to stop trying but I never did because the only thing I want out of life is to be happy. :)

your right what was I thinking. :)

I'm glad I can help. :)