Feeling

I close my eyes while tears build inside
Pain within my heart I have to hide
Wishing for someone to hold my hand
Forever along my side will stand
I want to feel free and shout
I want to be me and feel proud
I wish people could see what is within me
Not judge and just see what they want to see
How many times should I change for people
How many faces should I make to feel peacful
Will being myself ever be enough
In a world you can only live if you are tough
Real friends stay for a while and disappear
Meeting new people and loosing them is what i fear
That's why i kept myself inside a shell
Within it in lonliness deeper i fell
But does anyone listen to sound of my lonely heart
Or should i repeat my story from the start