In Between

It is the battle between the comfortable and the unknown

the familiar and the new

the easy and the challenging

the past and the future

living and being alive

existing and growing

existing and exploring

being and doing

cuphalffull cuphalffull
46-50, M
2 Responses Sep 15, 2008

Thanks DB. Your story so relates to what inspired this post in that while the circumstanceis very different, there is still that point of taking that first step.

Years ago when I used to rappel off mountain bluffs, there was a brief moment where one was not quite committed to the top, nor over the edge.. giving over that trust to the strentgh of the rope. We called it neither space and it was the scariest part of the adventure... <br />
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I remember being so damn excited for the jump but frightened to no end to make that 'no turning back' committment to the fall.. will the safety measures so maticulously placed hold? will I make a mistake and falter? these questions were always on my mind as I held steady in that place of neither. <br />
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But there came a point on every jump I made where I knew i either had to sit atop and watch everyone else enjoy the adventure, or I had to stick my **** over the edge and trust I was not going to fail..<br />
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Ultimately, each time, I chose to face the fear and trust the gear.. trust myself.. the paralyzing uncertainity was just a breath.. a small moment of the experience.. and once I felt that life line holding.. I was able to let the rope flow thru that rack and scale down the mountain bluff or beautiful cave pit.. seeing the world from a point of view one can NEVER EVER see from the safety atop it all..<br />
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You poem just reminded me of that experience for some reason.. and I never once regretted making the jump out of the comfort zone and into the adrenaline rush of life's adventures..<br />
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~ hope this helps ~