You were the one
the one who would will let me do what I have to
even if it meant hurting you.

You never said a word,
not a sound,
about how you felt.

I didn’t want to hurt you,
I didn’t want to do what I did,
I never thought it would end this way.

To come home to an empty house,
dark, and cold with no sign of you,
no sign that you cared.

The only thing left was a note,
a note that said you were sorry,
sSorry that you had to leave.

Why didn’t you say anything to me?
I could have helped,
I could have changed,
I could have tried harder,
I could of…

But could I…
could I have changed,
tried harder,
worked harder?

Or does this mean that I was not what you needed,
that I was not enough.
Was I not kind enough,
not loving enough,
not understanding enough,
not there enough,
not around enough?

What is wrong with me?
That I lost the only thing that held my heart in place and my mind in check,
The only thing that made everything clear.

That I lost the one that showed me the way,
that showed me the light,
the one that pulled me up,
that lifted me higher.

Why did you do this to me?
Why did it have to end like everything else?
With no warning,
no explanation,
with nothing but a note.

Now there is nothing worth living for.
Nothing for me anymore.

No hope,
no kindness ,
no love,
no joy,
no friendship,
Nothing.

We had everything,
I didn’t see this coming.
I didn’t know I was hurting you,
I didn’t know that you were dying on the inside,
I didn’t know that I was the one holding you back,
I didn’t see any of it.

Its’ all coming crashing down on me,
like a wave in a storm ,
destroying everything in its path.

I see everything now.
I see now how much I hurt you.
I see now that you tried to tell me,
over and over again.

But I didn’t listen.
I didn’t try to understand.
I only saw what I wanted to see.

But I am not that person anymore,
I have changed.
But nothing can change the fact that you are gone.

You should not be the one, who is sorry,
I am the one who should be sorry.
Sorry for all that I have caused,
Sorry for all the pain I put you through,
Sorry that I left you alone when I should have stayed.

I am Sorry that I see everything now,
now that it’s too late.

I forgive you for leaving,
you deserved better.

I don’t deserve to be forgiven,
Because it’s too late,
it will always be too late.
mhLILRED mhLILRED
22-25, F
Aug 23, 2014