Tainted Reality (i Just Finished This..so Bare With Me)

Wandering the depths of the dungeon that is in my brain

Existing is a struggle...I'm forever hauling around this ball and chain

Feeling completely numb yet ever so emotional

The universe is so bright, how did my world become so dull?

Wandering the halls, searching for my tainted reality

Looking down upon myself, is this how I am meant to be?

A bottle of liquid heat gripped in my right hand

A knife in the left...my blood soaks into the sand

I look around now, how did I end up here?

I've become deaf...yet all I can do is hear

Opening my eyes, everything is so dark

I can see it all, even my soul that has been marked

I take another swallow and bleed a little more

Shaking my head, I step through the heavy dungeon door

Back to the haven of darkness that exists in my head

I don't feel alive....but I'm sure I am not dead





Sorry it's a bit depressing.

luckypickle luckypickle
24 Responses Sep 20, 2009

sad but so real and well written. i feel the hurt reading the words

A lot of people probably feel like that...It is sort of like reality

True that.

Hmmm..I've never heard of that...and will look it up. Thanks for the comment.

This poem is wonderfully expressive. <br />
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The sentiments you express remind me of a friend of mine who expresses similar thoughts and feelings and likes to do so via poetry. He recently discovered he is an INFJ personality type. If you've never read about this type, google it and see if you can relate to it. My friend found great comfort in discovering why he thinks about things the way he does and why he feels things so deeply. The test is called the Myers-Briggs personality test. Thanks again for your beautiful poem.

Thank you Freefall. *hugs*

It feels true and tender. Great post.

It feels true and tender. Great post.

Thank you Empowered. *hugs* I'm sorry you related..but.......it's nice to know I'm not alone. *hugs*

Lucky, I TOTALLY felt this. Excellent job :) Hope you'll find the light one day and hold on tight to it. I understand what you are going through...I'm going through another bout of depression myself. I've accepted that it's part of who I am - hard to explain. I just pray and carry on. It comes and goes. ((((hugs))))) to you my friend :)


Awwwwww *hugs*

Hippie......you compare me to a god..I am touched.

WOW! This one is FULL of dark & moody imagery!<br />
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Haunting...yet passionate~<br />
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There is always darkness before dawn. You just have to know it & feel it.<br />
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Well done! <br />
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Again, you're poetry reminds me so much of Jim Morrison's work.<br />
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Thanks love. I'm glad you enjoyed it. *hugs*

I try to write something possitive..but have failed at it..but I will someday. Thanks for the comment mikka.

yin-yang...no sorry.s!!!thats you..."if i.m allowed to say....between....the chairs.....would u ever consider to write...a positive poem about you....maybe worth a try....that u can write...deep..class...no doubts..keep d faith/touch..thanks

Dragon..that means a lot coming from you. Thank you so much.

Pick, I know what that room is like... being trapped in a dark place where your thoughts seem to be bouncing all around the room... and they all seem dark. <br />
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Turn on the light (which is you) and step the hell out of there!<br />
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And if you ever need someone to kick down the damn door... give me a shout! <br />
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Nevertheless... this is an excellent piece of work and great therapy!<br />
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Aww BC that means alot. I thank you so much. I love both of you *hugs topay and BC*

Just go with flow mam..<br />
Don't think to much about tomorrow. It will build anxiety in your life. I believe you'll get better from day to days.<br />
*hug Pickle tight*

Thanks Topay. *hug* <br />
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I worried that it wouldn't make any sense.

I feel you mam, you describe it clearly. Just let those experience passed away.. <br />
Don't be disappointed with it. :)<br />
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Thank you Imp. I don't know whether to be proud or disappointed. *hugs*

wow pickle, amazing i really feel this, i know what you are expressing here....espailly the last part.....*hugs* perfect