The tears I cry ,

Are deep inside.

Nobody sees

nobody reads

I hate this life,

I hate this place

why do I try to save face?

I love my home

I am too old to roam

I love my Love, and my kids

so why do I wish life would rid

I just want this pain to go away.....

I don't really want an early grave.

Your dead,

your gone

my heart is lead

you left me to deal

with life unreal

I hate you

I love you

I miss you

I hate you

your free

I am nothing but a dead tree

my friends don't need me

you don't even answer the phone

I feel so alone

damn the pills

they give no thrills

the pain is still real

I can still feel

my nerves they say

oh hip hip hooray

so now  I can be happy and gay

**** you you ***

I am tired of class

the tears

will they fall for years?

well then when have they ever stopped

I was a mistake

can't I catch a break?

you in your big fancy home

are you happy your alone?

I am a stone

or heartache and bone

if there is a god,

is he on vacation?

oh pardon the pun

**** you I am done.

MeltedFlowers MeltedFlowers
31-35, F
Feb 28, 2010