Mad World~full Of Blood

I stared blankly at the pink walls of my bathroom, tears streaming down my face. I picked up my nook and replayed the video on you tube. Absentmindedly my voice shakily whispered the words to the song.

All around me are familiar faces,
worn out places,
worn out faces,
Bright and early for thier daily races,
going nowhere,
Going nowhere,
Their tears are filling up their glasses,
no expression,
no expression,
hide my head i wanna drown my sorrow,
no tomorrow,
no tomorrow,
And i find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad,
The dreams in which i die in,
are the best i ever had,
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take,
When people run in circles,
its a very, very,
mad world
mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good,
happy birthday,
Happy birthday,
made to feel the way that every child should,
sit and listen,
sit and listen,
Went to school and i was very nervous,
no one knew me,
no one knew me,
tell me teacher, what's my lesson,
look right through me,
look right through me,
and i find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad,
The dreams in which i die in,
Are the best i ever had,
i find it hard to tell you,
i find it hard to take,
When people run in circles,
its a very, very,
mad world
Mad world
enlarge your world
Mad world

I stand and grab a knife from the cabnet. I clean it carefully with rubbing alcohol and wipe my arm clean as well. I slowly drag the knife across my arm, but no cut was made. Pushing harder i dig the knife into my skin. Still no cut. I sigh and set the knife down, making a mental note to get it sharpened later.

Standing up, i check and see that the door remained locked. The cotton ball with rubbing alcohol caught my attention as it fell to the ground, me having knocked it.

I picked it up and put it under my nose, breathing in the chemical fumes. My head buzzed and a warning signal was sent from my brain, but i contined to breathe, enjoying the sharp scent it had. My thoughts and senses were dulled and my vision was blurry.

I stopped when i heard knocking at the door. Tossing everything under the sink, i stood up and unlocked the door.

"Hurry up and shower" mother screamed at me.

"Yes mam" i said and closed the door, locking it once agian.

I ******** and stepped into the tiny shower. I shampooed my hair and rinsed my body with soap and water. Then picking up my razor i shaved my legs.

'Wait' i thought ' razors have blades! I can cut myself!' I pressed the razor onto my arm and roughly pulled across just as i had done with the knife.

I grinned, seeing the bloodquickly come out. I cut my arm several times before drying off and bandaging the wound. I put on an old black and gray striped long sleeved shirt. Happy, that it covered the bandage. Set the razor back in the shower, anxoius for when i would be able to bleed agian.


darkredblood darkredblood
13-15, F
Sep 16, 2012