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As I Fall

As I Fall

By Lucifer

 

 

Little boy runs and hides

While daddy screams and shouts

Holding back his tears

As dad and mom have a fallout

Oh no, there goes daddy hitting mommy yet again

The things he has to fear!

As silently he cries!

And often wonders why!!!?

 

Why suffer this torment?

I’m so tired.

Of this pain I feel

And the scars in my mind!

Your anger is killing me

As I suffer your torrents

Of screams, rebukes and hits!!

 

And as I fall

I slip piece by piece

Into the deep

Of a sadness of the heart!

It’s breaking down

This life I have

Everything seems so faded

As I smash into the ground!

 

 

 

 

Now they call him weird

And show him disdain and sneers

He hides his face in books

Still haunted by the dirty looks

And the voice of his greatest fear

A father always near!

He finds him in his head

Fills his thoughts with dread

Will he become a copy,

Of the man who hit his mommy!?

 

Why sit alone?

And hide in plain sight?

Why must I lie?

And say everything is fine?

Is there a way,

To shed this past of mine?

Will there be any way,

To find redemption in time?

 

And as I fall

I slip piece by piece

Into the deep

Of a sadness of the heart!

It’s breaking down

This life I have

Everything seems so faded

As I smash into the ground!

 

 

 

Is this what I must be?

A freak created by pain?

A castaway of all that is good and right?

Is all I should have,

Be this heart of misery?

Why can’t I have one day,

When I can say I’m fine?

 

And as I fall

I slip piece by piece

Into the deep

Of a sadness of the heart!

It’s breaking down

This life I have

Everything seems so faded

As I smash into the ground!

 

 

JollyDevittaRoger JollyDevittaRoger 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 9, 2008

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Your words are beautiful and sad. I wonder why you take on their pain. It has nothing to do with you, just the weakness in others leaking out into your heart, mind and soul.<BR><BR>Life is just lessons in the things we can grow strong from if we don't let the weaker souls pull us down. You choose your own light and path in this life. Don't drown in someone elses' pool of missed chances and unlearned lessons. (even if its family) This is the only life you have right now don't waste it on anyone elses mistakes but your own.<BR><BR>If you don't know how ... there are many people around who could help I bet. Stop shutting them out. And, quit thinking everyone thinks you are a freak. People will think what they want to think, but you can change that by not accepting their approval or disapproval. Make your own light by stepping into a life you create by first starting to love yourself a bit, okay? <BR><BR>People who love themselves from the inside out, loving the good and the bad they find inside, find that most other people like them a lot. You can't expect people to like you if you cannot like or love yourself, sweetie. Start being your own best friend in a loving way and something different will start to happen... others will join you in friendship, too!<BR><BR>Peace Light and Much Love to You.

Very creative, Well put.