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Growing up among the opposite sex ,i've always questioned whether or not their is a soul mate for everyone. I mean could there be a perfect match for me or you somewhere in this world ...I wonder the concept seizes to amaze me. But i guess the real question here is how far would you willing to go to find and attain that special someone?....do you even care?. Truthfully i believe money can buy one happiness and often people choose their pet as their ultimate companion or their occupation but i guess if it works then what's the big problem whatever helps you sleep at nigh right ? i wouldn't mind being independent for as long as i can just to enjoy the single life & my own company. Everyone has different goals & it's not like on your journey somewhere along the line you won't stumble into love, whenever wherever it's bound to happen, letting it in is where it gets complicated timing for example is not just right. But when you think about it the reality is after a long day especially after one that has been stressful there's nothing like coming home to a person who desires to shower all their love and affection towards you and the intimacy let alone..... a glass of wine does the trick i can hear someone say or a one night stand to blow off the steam or a friends with benefits to fill the void. I can't comprehend how we could say a person is a drug , drives them crazy or makes it impossible for them to breathe. That list could go on and on so i suppose while i wrote this i realized that this is one of the reason's i fear to fall in love, i don't trust myself or the idea of becoming consumed by someone, the fact is though you can never be prepared when such a feeling takes over i just don't want to open my heart and end up wasting what i can offer only to a person who in the end is going to not be their for the long haul, seeing their true colours is their company and what they can have offer enough for me to settle contently. The beauty of friendship especially if you've known one another since birth and suddenly one day you see them in a whole in a new light, you have nothing to loose with someone you have such a connection right? or do you? it's risky but see the benefit is you've seen their flaws and habits and as long as you've known them see if you can fully accept them, if it is a thought so far as marriage because you will see them everyday for a majority of your life together. In society , for the younger generation who go around throwing "i love you" like it is an everyday vocabulary slang word in their personal dictionary Okay , so maybe it is & unfortunately it's freedom of speech but the concept itself is debatable let alone complex , i think people my age are just in love with the idea doing things that a REAL couple in love would do or their of it and act like they are convincing themselves that they have have found what so many struggle to achieve, understandable if they don't receive it at home but if they get taken advantage then i don't know. All i can say is i hope well i believe we all deserve at least a taste of it, to be unconditionally devoted with one guy for my entire life if i could meet and be with just that one i would do it spare me the heartaches. I mean i wouldn't mind but that is a very rare thing to occur , be really lucky if you did have it happen to you. I myself have had my share of disappointment from the the guys I've come into contact with & no i have never been in relationship with any of them, something like one i always say, i would call them my conquests since i try to establish contact with them only to understand the way they operate and gain experience. Most recently the one i was strongly attracted to and potentially saw a relationship with vanished but he being 19 it made sense besides he did have an on & off gf i came to know & am not sure if i was wrong to assume he would probably just want me for momentary pleasure. Anyhow the sadness is something i never want to face again it was like a slap in the face of not being taken seriously, but it's unavoidable i stand to rather be the dumper opposed to the dumpee but fair share i will come to face. At such a young age i still have come to the decision that i prefer to focus on my studies, hobbies and maintain close relations at this point to when i finally establish myself, to give it a try in the dating scene even more meaningfully a relationship.Of course it would be everlasting if there was one guy that would fulfill my every need and beyond makes me breakfast or have chivalry like 1 of those 80's fella's, but movies put huge pressure on the male gender entirely.
My conclusion people... don't loose hope rather keep your head high, don't lower your standards but not overpowering , nor regret those you once loved cause they teach you a lesson. Maybe not ever you think, 5-10-20 yrs from now, to wait can drive a person crazy. When we're young we engage in puppy love but as we age it gets more serious and worrisome with this uncertain emotion. But life is not meant to be easy, the way i see is you can strive through multiple relationships to you'll find who you've been looking for or wait till it stumbles upon you. But perhaps the biggest conflict is between your head and your heart, be careful not to be in love with the illusion of love....
My conclusion people... don't loose hope rather keep your head high, don't lower your standards but not overpowering , nor regret those you once loved cause they teach you a lesson. Maybe not ever you think, 5-10-20 yrs from now, to wait can drive a person crazy. When we're young we engage in puppy love but as we age it gets more serious and worrisome with this uncertain emotion. But life is not meant to be easy, the way i see is you can strive through multiple relationships to you'll find who you've been looking for or wait till it stumbles upon you. But perhaps the biggest conflict is between your head and your heart, be careful not to be in love with the illusion of love....
By:
livelymind
Age:
18-21
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Female
13
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