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The Uncertainty...please Handle What I Can't Seem To Cope With...

The infamous they often say that if something is bothering you or if you are happy, sad, in love, or whatever the emotional reason may be that it is best to write it somehow work through whatever it is that you are pondering about. Sigh...if I were to write a letter based on this, it would go something like this:

Dear God....

Why do I always find myself in situations that cause me to make great life choices? How much stronger do I need to become in your eyes before these situations stop being presented to me? I have always done the right thing no matter what...Even though there were many a dark hour, somehow I made it through them all, however, I feel this is my greatest challenge yet. Is this a test of my faith as to whether I have faith in you, or is this merely the way things are? They say you do not give us any more than we can handle, however, I do not necessarily believe that is the case. I think that in many instances, we do not have a choice but to handle what is before us. It's not that we can handle it, as we often shoot from the hip with what we are presented.

So many cliche's come to mind..."It's always darkest before the dawn," and "all it takes is the faith of a mustard seed," are what comes to mind. Although it is true that night time things do seem exacerbated, and one must go through a storm before a rainbow can appear, it does not make the uncertainty any easier to accept or understand.

Is it true that having even the smallest amount of faith will produce results beyond imaginable? I often wonder if the principle of asking you to handle what I can not would apply, much like when you cannot forgive someone, we are to ask you to do it for us.

In so closing this cryptic letter that only you could understand, I ask for your guidance, for peace and for some sort of light to help me resolve what is bothering me. If any being can help me, most certainly you can.

Truly needing assurances and guidance, and fighting back the tears,
You know who I am

SmartSweet1 SmartSweet1 51-55, F Jan 20, 2012

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