A Promise...

Dear me – aged 6,

  I know that you don’t understand what is happening to you – you don’t know why you are being hurt…but remember that it is not your fault. It is not your fault that he has decided to hurt you so much – there is nothing wrong with you…you are a sweet and innocent child and you should be protected. I am sorry that I cannot protect you – sorry that you had to go through all of this – but it will make you stronger. I know that doesn’t make it easier – and nothing I can say will make it fair…because it isn’t. I wish you were strong enough to face this now – to ask for the help you need…but I understand that you are just a frightened child and you don’t understand any of this. When you are able to face this we will do it together…I promise that I will help you through this – I will give you the support you need and I will try to be strong enough for both of us…and when I am not I promise that I will allow myself to be weak and ask for help.  

Me – aged 31

Flugelblues Flugelblues
31-35, F
2 Responses Oct 29, 2008

Aww ty Andrew! *Hugs back*

Very good - to both of you. You age 31 and to you age 6. You are a survivor and you were able to keep yourself; your sensitivities, your fairness, your ability to see the truth instead of getting lost in lies. You have experienced the ugliness but remained beautiful. I heard something once that stayed with me and I will pass it on to you... Forgiveness is what the flower does to the foot that has just crushed it... You are a flower and your perfume wafts beautifully still. Thank you for being brave enough to write this story - thank you for being strong enough to endure (many don't) - and thank you for your sweet and gentle spirit. Don't ever forget to be gentle with yourself... you are going to be fine - both of you. God bless you.